Lately i have been thinking of going overseas to pursue my doctorate. It has always been a goal that i have, perhaps more for the vanity of being called Dr. Lee. I think my parents are edging me on as well. Especially recently after what has happened. I am tempted to say the least. After all, my parents are supportive and i really ought to consider going before my PR in australia expires in the next two years (i am sure the aussies will take it back since i have not stayed in the country for the mandatory 3 years or something). I have seriously considered it before, but i would say that my decision of not doing it now is exactly the same as last time, notwithstanding what had happened in recent months; i simply do not have enough experience to generate any ideas for a research paper. I am happy doing the sort of clinical work i am doing now. But yet, i know it is not going to be enough in the long run. I have told myself just when i started work, that i would give myself 3 years at this job before accumulating enough experience and grounding for further studies. Now, i am half way through that 3 years and am still floundering with ideas. For a brief period of time, i have thought that if i were to get married within this 3 years, i would put my studies plans on hold for a while. But i guess, that is pretty much redundant. But that is alright, the first thing i have learnt about all these is that, i am way, way off from talking about the golden arches. And i really do not expect that to happen anytime soon, if at all. My youngest brother has been quite encouraging and edged me to join him in australia. In a way, probably to "help" me get over my personal problems. But seriously, no one should mistaken that i have decided not to go now, is because of relationship. It is never meant to be time now to leave. Not even if i have broken up or happily together with someone in a relationship. I think studies has never been an excuse for me. I do want it. On my own terms. When the time comes, i would go for it. If i am still in a relationship then, we will have to find a way to make it work. If i am not, it just meant one thing less for me to worry about. But rest assured that i will go when i am ready.